Absence of Faith (Semper Dubito)
20th anniversary for this song.
I wrote a loooong thing about having a lack of faith in stuff, and then I accidentally pressed
back in the browser and ... voila... all was gone. Half an hours worth of pondering each word's meaning and weight. Gone.
Where does that leave me? Why of course; A lack of faith in technology! It should have understood I didn't mean to do that! Stupid machine!
In any case, the feeling I had writing this song in the first place is still lingering - I still have no faith. In a lot of things; Politics, relationships, friendships... myself...
Apart from one thing these 20 years has tought me; There are a few things that do last, namely friendships. Thank you for proving me wrong! You know who you are! Love you!
As for the song itself, I know I should have put more effort on the track.I guess, in its current state, it reflects my level of faith, mostly in myself;
* It was a long time ago I could call myself a guitar player, but I did make an effort to make them sound decent. Took me a long time to practice just for this, and I have already forgotten all of it.
* I'm lazy. You can even hear a doorbell ringing during recording of the acustic bits.
* I'm no bass player. It could have been more varied, and I would have made it so had I known how to.
Tried to maintain the despair and hopelessness I felt while writing the original in this, yet with a touch of hope.
All in all - This is a tribute to my 20 year absence of faith.
/// ...Of course guitar playing blah and midpart blah, bassline blahblah. ///
It is only a matter of choice.
Just have faith in music. Fuel for your life, cure for your pain. The best lover, the best friend, the best political party, the best religion.
The best yourself.
You must see that if you look back.